..only you..

sometimes all i really want to do is sit beside you..i want to watch cheesy and crappy movies with you, and we will laugh at them together..i want to plan things with you, things we'll never do, but for some reason just planning them with you is fine with me..i want to talk to you about everything and anything..i want to go of around with you and makes jokes that aren't funny but we'll laugh nonetheless..

i just want to fall in love with you over and over and maybe at one point we'll get tired of each other..BUT TILL THEN I WANT YOU AND JUST YOU..^_^

..i miss these things..

I MISS THESE THINGS..

# waking up at 8.00 and running outside to play with my friends
# not caring what i looked like
# not worrying if he would like me
# getting dirty and coming home and taking a bubble bath
# when swearing was such a bad thing
# when there wasn't such a thing as a rumor
# when getting in trouble at school was only because you wouldn't share your crayons, when your only number was your house number
# when we didn't spend 5 hours a day on FB, YM, SKYPE, MS, BLOG, THUMBR..
# when the only reason girls cried was when they got hurt or if someone died
# holding your moms hand while in the mall
# when the only music we listened to was on disney
# when or parents would plan who we hung out with
# when we did whatever we wanted without being judged
# when we didn't text all day

..what i would like..

i would like you to give me :-

>> a cd made with your favourite songs
>> a mini eiffel tower
>> a kiss all smeared with chocolate
>> one airplane ticket to visit you
>> anything that suprising me..!! [but it has to be delivered by the mailman]
>> a love song with my name
>> a globe..so i could see the whole world
>> a star named after me
>> a long distance call in the middle of the night, just to talk about how bored you are
>> your jacket
>> your most obscure secret
>> a funny public demonstration of love
>> those pair of socks i told you i needed
>>your unbreaking and pure true love

..that should be me..

that should be me holding your hand

that should be me making you laugh

that should be me this is so sad

that should be me that should be me

that should be me feeling your kiss

that should be me buying you gifts

this is so wrong i cant go on

till you believe that..THAT SHOULD BE ME..

..a reason..

i used to just lay there in my bed and try to find a reason..

a reason to stay
a reason to leave
a reason to give up
a reason to believe
a reason to remember
a reason to forget
a reason to love
a reason to hate
a reason .. just about..EVERYTHING..

Where did i go wrong..??
Whats wrong with me..??

i got tired of finding a reason so i stopped..sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute..more stupid questions..more stupids answers..


everything does not happen for a reason..


flashback memories might kill, but they come and go as well as feelings..


nothing is simple..why make them more complicated anyway..??